Dazed

The day or two after an outpouring of emotion are almost like walking through a dream.  The build-up of anxiety, frustration, despair, and anger over the last week culminated in a waterfall of heartache streaming down my face last night.  It felt so good to let it go.  I hate holding things in and I wish that I knew how to cry more often.  But after something like that I have no idea what to do the next few days but just let it settle.  Let the reality of this newness find its way into my existence and just be.  Things will be okay.  Life will move on.  It always does and even though I rage against it, I am happy that it brings me along with it.