Numb

Today has left me so numb.  I can't feel anything tonight.  It's something like sadness or loneliness but more like hitting the ground after falling down the steps.  Your just shocked and numb.  You are alive, but you don't feel anything your world just came down on you and you hit every step on the way down.  You know that it will hurt later and you will need time to heel and you will need someone to help you.  But now you are numb.  Now you are empty.  Now, right now, you want your world to stop turning around.  I am tired tonight.  I am physically tired.  I am also tired of uncontrollably putting myself on the line in places that I am not wanted or understood.  It is like an addiction and like addictions, it has left me numb. 

Comments

[Jade]

Recently it seems as if everyday has been like this. Why do we give and give and give to someone, when they are only going to sneak up and push us down those stairs anyway. And most of the time they do so unknowingly. True love...it is so elusive but we can't seem to stop trying to find it. You are an amazing writer! Thank you...I was inspired!

[rose]

hey adam...it's been a long time since I've stopped by. I read this post...and it's sort of like I feel your tiredness...although I'm nowhere near you...I'm sorry :(